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January 1, 2007

Change the environment and the goldfish turns white…

Filed under: Friends, Happy, Home, Self Pity — happychick @ 6.38p01

For me, 2006 was a year of revelations. I lost things I took for granted, I gained things I never knew existed. I learned a lot. I learned a lot about me, about the people around me and about what really is important. I slacked off at school, which is probably the worst thing I could have done, and then I had to work my ass off, away from my family and friends, in punishment. I learned how important a decent education is, and decided that I did not want to become a janitor. I fell in love, had a great time while it lasted, went on my first romantic holiday, and was confused when it all ended badly. I learned that before one starts relationship they must be prepared for the end. I made some awesome friends, was burned by many, and then learned that true friendships are forever.

 

2007 scares me. School will take up most of my time, I’ll no longer have a job; I’ll be living with dozens of other hormonal teenagers and probably shed more than a few tears before the year is out. I’ll have to work my ass off and try to keep in touch with mates. It’ll be a struggle to find time to exercise what with all the “religious studies” and whatnot… I’m scared. I’m terrified.

But as one of my favourite sayings go- “Change is the only constant in life”… and boarding school won’t last forever.

 

I guess, today, I had a lot of fun. Cate and I went to the pools with the cow-milker (who, as it turns out is NOT very hot, whatsoever, and also a little on the weird side.) But we had fun. We swam a bit, we bitched a bit, and I realised this fact: Cate is fun. And she’s my friend. And basically, as I see it right now, apart from Kirah… she’s my only girlfriend in this town. I mean, When she went to work I talked to Craig-the-cow-milker. He’s a nice guy. We chatted to Corey, who, it seems, I have misjudged for almost a year. He’s sweet. And he’s funny. Not the strange anti-social geek I had him pinned for. Then Dyl turned up so I purged him for info about the girl he was messaging (he’s so cute… so innocent.) The thing was, they were boys. I’m a girl (yes folks, that did a while for me to figure out)…

It’s the same with everyone. Peter- he’s one of the coolest people I know. J- A little misguided, but he has such a big heart, and I’m so proud of him for getting his life back on track… (who, btw called me this morning- we had a lovely chat and I shall endevour to see him next time I’m in town). Gorgi- I like to think we’re still good mates, even though he’s Pete’s bestie- I mean, we message each other often and he’s basically a really good guy…

They’re all boys.

I get kind of depressed when girls call me a flirt because my mates are male- but if all the girls I knew weren’t such self-obsessed biatches, I’d have more female friends…

 

Everyone is changing before my eyes, myself included… but I just don’t like it. I want it all to be easy again- simple and fun… not having to worry about she said he said bullshit, when I’m working, who’s pissed at me…

 

I just hope that 2007 isn’t quite as dramatically life-changing as 06 was.

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4 Comments »

  1. you know ash, you’re the best god damn friend i’ve ever made in my life, and you going away like you did, going through what you did, losing what you did made me realise that. heck I’d drive to sydney and back with your gran and pop to see you again.
    did u get my letter?
    luv nush xoxo

    Comment by Anushka — January 3, 2007 @ 6.38p01

  2. BTW. it’s “take away the sunshine…and the goldfish turns white” ( it’s true happned to my fish once, the one with the bloated eye)

    Comment by Anushka — January 3, 2007 @ 6.38p01

  3. The goldfish still turns white. You wouldn’t really drive to Sydney with my Grand’s… I wouldn’t even drive to Sydney with my Grand’s. That’s crazy-talk! (And don’t ever let them hear you say that… you’ll give them ideas.)

    Comment by happychick — January 4, 2007 @ 6.38p01

  4. Hehe it’s great to know there are some people out there just like me. Good luck in 2007!

    Comment by goldfish — May 22, 2007 @ 6.38p05


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