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November 11, 2006

Dance! Guilt! Argh!

Filed under: My Life — happychick @ 6.38p11

I’m not sure whether or not it’s just me, but I really, really have a problem with guilt. I mean, I feel guilty about making Mum/Paul/Brother drive me to work- even though that’s the only way I can get there. I feel guilty having C take me to and from dancing twice a week- even though she lives just around the corner. I feel guilty lying to my friends- I feel guilty telling them the truth. I’m just a big fat guilt-sack, who can’t do a thing for herself without worrying about the repercussions (is that the right word?) on those around her.

So, my latest guilt-inspiring problem happens to be associated with C, my Dance teacher, whom also happens to be one of the coolest people in the world, and who has changed my prejudice views on Asian people forever.

Okay, so, Tuesday is my big interview at the school. If I get in, I will become a God-loving (Ahem? Not even Religious, people! Not EVEN RELIGIOUS!!), uniform-wearing, non-makeup-wearing boarder at the school. If so, I will, as the term boarding suggests, be boarding there (ah, it makes sense now, doesn’t it?)…

And hence, Wednesday night dancing is out of the question, right? Well, I thought so. And I was depressed, because I couldn’t go back next year. But that’s life right?

WRONG.

C seems to think I’ll be back next year- to learn her dances, to teach her classes… And as many times I’ve said “Uh… it’s not gonna happen” she goes into “All your Mum has to do is write a note! You can catch a bus to Coreena’s house… then stay over mine on Wednesday nights, then catch a train back in the morning…”

Uh… awkward situation. Mum says “Haha… no.” Something about concentrating on studies… it’s like a 2 hour train trip in the morning… So basically, it’s a no-go.

But then… I really, really, really want to go back to Dancing next year- I’m nowhere near as fit as I was, and… OMG… Amanda has become a better dancer than me! (bahaha… I sound so immature… Jesus). But it’s true. I was always the best at Dancing- there, I was in my element. But now… well, the only thing I’ve ever beaten others at, I’m not good at it anymore…

So that’s all for tonight (so much for a short post…)

Much love, x x x x

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4 Comments »

  1. guilt sack haha lol

    Comment by wallywally — November 12, 2006 @ 6.38p11

  2. Guilt is only beneficial if it changes behavior. Screw guilt 😉

    Comment by Sandra — November 12, 2006 @ 6.38p11

  3. You’re not religious? You sound awfully catholic with all that guilt 😉

    Comment by Mr Angry — November 15, 2006 @ 6.38p11

  4. lmao – that’s what I thought too Mr. Angry!

    Comment by jcoftw — November 18, 2006 @ 6.38p11


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