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May 11, 2006

I don’t like to fight…

Filed under: My Life — happychick @ 6.38p05

Hey guys… Sigh. I've been having major highs and even more major lows this past fortnight… These really abnormal mood swings are due partly to PMS, and partly to, as Mum puts it, "withdrawal symptoms". I've been on this acne drug, and it's been known to cause depression, even suicide. Well, now that I've come off it, I'm up-and-down all the time…

It was mostly due to this (and the fact that I'm the sort of person who naturally busts on people), that Pete and I had the biggest fight yesterday. 😦 See, I'm not exactly uh, nice, to him, despite him being my bf and all… I kinda always put him down. Anyway, yesterday arvo when he and Maco were here, I realised how awful I'd been, and, unfortunately, so did he. We had a massive text fight, which resulted in me calling him in tears, apologizing profusely and (mock horror), admitting I was wrong. I think he sort-of felt bad about making me cry, so he apologized and let it go. But, in that hour or so, when I thought he was gonna dump me, I was terrified. I was afraid to lose him, and it was only then that I reealised how much I like him. So everything's good now, but I swear to god- It will not happen again. I don't wanna be that peson anymore. I want to treat him as my qual- not as dirt. 🙂 xx chick

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3 Comments »

  1. The only thing worse than the fear of not getting the person you want, is the fear of losing them once you have them.

    That fact goes along the spectrum of all ages.

    Hold your head high, be the person you need to be.

    Love ya

    Comment by jcoftw — May 11, 2006 @ 6.38p05

  2. Quite a good resolution.
    I think relationships gotta be simple, since life isnt, though it is quite a hard task to make them simple. Did you wonder why you behaved like this ? Maybe there’s something beyond that you didnt realize yet, and that needs to erase, you know.
    Anyway, like your blog.
    Good luck with being a better person. I’m sure you can be (not that you suck for the moment :))

    Comment by graindlune — May 11, 2006 @ 6.38p05

  3. Anyone who can admit when they are wrong is doing ok happychick. Stay happy!

    Comment by Mr Angry — May 12, 2006 @ 6.38p05


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